Conclusion of Variety

I wonder if stress is a relative thing? I think about my problems and think they must be so minor in comparison to a homeless person or a tsunami victum. However, if there situation is 10 times worse then there stress must be 10 times worse. Anyway.

Over the week I had to deal with a minor quibble from online boards where a bunch of infighting occured after a player wasn’t happy with a game. Seemed like a simple enough problem and I’ve handled these situations before. Amazing I seemed to have made things worse. However, I no longer blame myself. Internet communication is an amazing thing. I can write pointless things about my life and people will actually read it. And, while writing this I could be pissing someone off and make them hate me forever.

Personal communication is probably only 50% words. I’m no expert but you don’t really need to be to figure that one out. In college I participated in an experment for psychology were I guy was testing internet communication. Me and some other guy had to type a one page essay on pornography and we could only communicate over the internet. I had a lot of fun with it tossing emoticons and joking. By the end he had no idea what pornography was (he thought he did) and was raving pissed while I had a delightful time with the project and though he did, too.

So, I’ve seen flamewars ignite and passions soar since I first started logging on in 1991. The recent events on the my internet boards show that some things never change. From the recent fight to a good friend leaving the boards.

To add to my nothing stress I ended up sitting next to Stephanie the other night while she went through he mail after being in Chicago for five days. This wasn’t something I wanted to do* but she seemed comfortable with it and if she didn’t want me to see anything she could have waited.

Of course she ended up pulling out mortgage statements and other financial information which made me realize that our financial situations are very different (well, I knew this, but this was a big reminder). This gets me going on reflecting on my financial situation which stable, is not great or secure for anything bad to happen to me physically or in the work place.

I now try and figure how to change that. Have been for awhile and am totally clueless when it comes down to these things. I love my job (doing the work I want, walk to work, no deadlines ex ex) but if I want to improve my future in any significant way things will have to change.

*There are certain things I want to remain ignorant of such as past boyfriends (Chasing Aimee Complex, or the whole how do I compare) and finances but realize I’ll have to deal with these things if I want the relationship to work.

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